parallel lines

I’ve never had anybody to think of when I listened to these love songs. People always turned up in my mind but they were never made to stay or they never came at the right time. I’ve always had bad timing, and been lied to several times. With you, it just seems different; even though it’s just been one time...I saw you and I didn’t think of everything I usually do. As a person, a lot of what you did just touched me, quietly observing you, don’t judge me.

I never really knew what this would feel like. Is this the real deal or is this just close enough to get by? Are you just a vision of what my perfect dream would look like? Why can’t I put a face to the heart or a moment that I live by? Its coz we didn’t have time, it was always just a pass by. Always on the phone, texting, home alone. Always made the time for you, now I don’t really know whether if I stop showing affection whether you’ll jump in and question, my absence, my withdrawal and whether I’m still in this. You wanted to give it a try, boy I’m trying, and I’m restless. I’m biting off the business side of this love, screw the formality, God’s the judge, I’m asking you really, I want an answer baby, just tell me if you really feel the same way too.

Maybe I’m infatuated, they all say this is impossible and maybe we’re just saying the right things and that’s why we’re always so breathless and I can’t even think of leaving yet, not when I’m so caught up in it. My mind’s always travelling and I can’t seem to draw it in, do you feel the same way I do? Does your mood depend on my mood? Or are we just two people that could have worked, if time would be a friend and not hurt us so deep?

Nawh, I’ll let my heart shh. I need to have time for myself too. God’s trying to show me that it ain’t about obsession, lovers need their space too. It’s cool, I got you :)